Spring Forward, Fall Back.
Welcome back! I trust that everyone has had an epic summer full of long weekends at the beach, uproarious laughter with dear friends, and lazy afternoons spent sprawled out on a blanket somewhere awesome. The past several months have been deeply eventful for me, some of the time was filled with events like the ones described above and some of the time was not. Either way – life has been beautiful and busy. Though not in the way it normally is, where my days are stuffed to the brim with awesome projects or thrift stores finds that I can’t wait to share with all of you.
I like communicating with others, but I’m known to be a bit reserved or truthfully, quite painfully reserved. So, this blog is a wonderful outlet for me, but life has a way of getting between me and my computer. This is particularly true of the past few months, as I have been focused on a battle in what I would call a very long war. We each have parts of ourselves that we must work on and one of my parts that needs work is my anorexia.
As with all battles (or maybe just some battles, what do I know, I’m not a historian), a point in time exists where a decision must be made. You choose whether to fight day after day depleting your reserves, maybe in hopes that your enemy is going to tire, or you choose to call in reinforcements. This summer, I chose the latter and spent just shy of two months at an inpatient program across the country to work on my anorexia. It was a challenge. And, who knew that coming back home was going to be even more challenging? Probably most anyone who has been through eating disorder treatment.
How I’ve spent 2014 has proven the same lessons to me over and over again: There is something unfathomably beautiful in each day, life is brief, and being anything other than entirely open to the world around you is a waste of scarce and precious time.
That being said, I
felt I owed everyone an explanation wanted to tell you where I’ve been and what I’ve learned. Now, I’ll probably start up the blog again and get back to covering all the topics I love; design, travel, real estate, and yes, especially food.
For the support I’ve received, I am forever grateful. For the relationships I’ve forged, I am forever thankful. For the life I’ve reclaimed, I am forever in awe.
I trust that now everyone is settling in to an autumn that promises bonfires, baked goods, and walks in crisp air with afternoon sunlight that magnifies those increasing voids between the changing leaves.
*Image sourced from here.
Thank your for sharing with us and allowing us along on your journey. It is so very courageous for you to share this (semi-)publically. I’m here to support in any way I can!
Thank you so much – your kind words are truly appreciated. I’ve felt like my life has been on pause lately and getting this out there makes me feel like I can really get going again.
Isn’t it amazing how reliving it can be to verbalize how you feel or what you are going through? Glad you feel a bit liberated! Writing always had that effect on me, too!
Blessings upon you as you continue your fight to return to health. I’ve really enjoyed reading your blog & look forward to your new projects. It’s humbling that you have shared this personal concern with strangers. I hope all your readers are supportive but remember that whether they’re supportive or not YOU are able to do this. You were wise enough to seek help & strong enough to stay in treatment you can conquer the issues of being home. May God give you all you need.
Hi Connie! Thank you so much for your encouragement. It would be a welcome scenario if each person responded with as much empathy and kindness as you!